“Never look down to test the ground before taking your next step: only he who keeps his eye iced on the far horizon will find his right road” Dag Hammarskjold
Recovery, whether from addiction, chronic pain, whatever is much like this: One day at a time. Profound, I know, but it is so simplistic, the approach to healing.
First of all I wish to say that I am not an expert on any of what I am about to share. It is MY journey, and mine alone! Well, that’s not true. It is the journey I made but also the effect that my experiences have had on the world around me. Family, friends, enemies. It has been a “long, strange trip” to say the least.
Don’t expect great technical writing, wonderful prose, artful poetry. I am a simple man who has made a journey through my version of hell and came out the other side, hopefully stronger, better, and maybe a bit wiser.
My next entry will begin this legacy. Part of the reason for doing this is to help my wife and son’s understand what has happened to me. To share with them the process and maybe mend some fences as I go. As a recovering addict (ok, there I said it for the cheap seats) I struggle to balance my life on a daily basis. Even though I never delved into the world of illicit drugs, I kept the prescription drug makers happy for many years. Now that I have been drug free for over a year I don’t suffer any cravings or desire to ever go down that path again. What I struggle with is dealing the the level of pain I experience and trying to maintain a daily routine in spite of it, just without the benefit of chemical intervention. And I am winning the battle!
But so as not to put the cart before the horse, I will close now and begin anew where I should begin, at the beginning!
